A Fond Adieu To 2014


2014 has been a good year for me. I hope it was for you also. As it comes to a close I look back on the year with a sense of pride and accomplishment. I planted many a seed in 2014 that I expect will sprout and grow into a lush and imposing tree of opportunity in 2015. It’s branches arching with copious fruits of nearly ripened achievements-in-waiting. Or maybe it’ll all go to shit. The incurable optimist in me favors the former.

Having talent is a good thing. Not only does it set you apart from others, but it distracts people from your less alluring qualities. For example, “Yes, Doug has an extra toe on his left foot but have you seen how well he plays the piano?” Face it. People are judgmental by nature. As long as you’re living on this planet you’ll never avoid being judged. But if you’re like me you really don’t give shit what people think of you anyway.

2014 was a great year for me in terms of spreading my creative wings. Every year I say with minimal conviction that THIS is the year I’m going to be somebody and do something amazing! Well, I can say without hyperbole that this year I really did something amazing. I made my first movie and made a lot of people stand up and take notice. Granted it was only six minutes long but hey, how many movies have you done that made the front page of the largest circulating newspaper in Canada AND was featured on the national news? Thought so.

Getting to make a movie with VERY little input/interference from those who ponied up the dough was an experience tantamount to that little kid on Christmas who knows his parents are really tight with money and probably didn’t buy him that bike he desperately wanted but come morning it’s there under the tree. I spent 13 years in the TV and Film biz and this was the first time that I got to experience the directorial side of the fence. Passionately and with little regard for how I’d be talked about at the water cooler if it looked like crap, I jumped into the role with both feet. I wrote, directed, produced, designed, built and composed my ass off! In the end I got a pretty darn good 6 minute long film about a superhero that looks like the offspring of Iron Man and Batman but who works with the community to resolve violence.

I walked away with a lot from this film. Not only did it show my employers that I’m true to my word and my proven abilities, but I also reminded myself that I can be so much more than the everyday me. When I reached this awareness it ignited a fire that engulfed a long dormant creative desire. I haven’t felt this way since my twenties when I knew everything about everything and I was certain to be a famous gajillionaire by thirty. How’d that turn out? Do you have any money you don’t want? Just send it to “Who the Hell’s KD Mack?”

I don’t want this renewed aspiration to fade into the ether any time soon. I like it. I need it. I want to arrive at 2015 with maximum conviction and then take it to the next proverbial level. I’ll be pushing the “SmartZombie” brand in 2015 and hopefully well beyond. There are most likely fewer days ahead of me now than there are behind. While I still have my health (knock’n on wood) and a young mind, I’ve come to the realization that I’m in my forties and I can’t waste time anymore. I could be the responsible adult and say that it’s all for my children, but I’d be lying. It’s purely selfish and I’m ok with that. I want to leave my mark. I’m confident that they’ll leave their own.

All the best to you in 2015. I hope your dreams come true and it doesn’t involving a court date.

– KD Mack

Ps. I don’t really have an extra toe.